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Books, Socks, and Mom Crying

I wrote this several months back for an editorial piece that was never published. Oddly enough it was also the first time I had written about my mother who had passed away five years ago.The theme was about home, and I really liked what I ended up writing about and thought that it’d be a shame if it just collected dust on my desktop. So here is:

Books, Socks and Mom Crying

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a tuesday poem

junsie:

wow. I have been lately, having constant waves of anxiety and though i have been getting better at working and working towards a greater goal, there is always this sinking feeling that nothing i will ever do will ever amount to any good and there is a need to write poetry and a need to have this restless being inside of me to howl towards whatever-

but that line, wow, “the primal scream that is poetic utterance, that poetry- however you define it- can face the extreme.”

Originally posted on Stephanie Barbé Hammer @ Magically Real:

Friends, last night I spoke with a cancer survivor about the primal scream that is poetic utterance, that poetry — however you define it — can face the extreme.

here’s a modest contribution.

unfinished poem

today I started a poem about 3 boys
who were murdered in a far away desert
but I couldn’t finish the poem because
as I was correcting the words, honing the language,
to make this perfect homage to these victims
some people murdered another boy
because of the 3 dead boys in the desert.
the 4th boy was just walking, but they killed
him because they thought revenge
was magic.
and as I was changing the poem
to reflect these new drastic developments
I read about boy #5 who died all alone — he just
died in a desert far away trying to come
here to THIS desert called America. clutching a rosary.
wearing jeans…

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decided.

i havent written anything on my blog in a long time.

a lot has happened.

bad things, good things but both things giving me this sense of feeling that i am exactly where i should be in my life.

everything might not be so great but i am exactly where i need to be and i am oddly ok with that.

i have been doing a lot of things. not just talking about doing it, but actually doing it
and that feels good.

 

-ryan.


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five FUN facts that you might not have known about me (for Leslie)

my new friend, Leslie recently read my other five facts you might not have known about me, thinking it was going to be “fun and cute” facts… what she got was a soul baring confession : / she wasn’t prepared, though the fact i am Korean should have been plenty of a red flag warning. So I scavenged my brain and so i got these facts. so without further ado:

Five FUN facts you might not have known about me

(for Leslie)

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Five Facts You Might NOT Have Known About Me

I guess there are things people don’t really know about you for a reason. I’m talking about the obscure facts that are not really shared not because it is hard to fit into a conversation but deep in side its hits a nerve and strikes a chord of the heart strings. Also, I think that sharing these things time to time is good. Good for the heart and good for the soul.

Its…er…healthy I guess.

I also think its brave and I’ve been inspired by one, Lauren Candia after reading her five facts to share five of my facts that most people don’t really know about me.

But the thing about me is that I over think and I needed time to sit down and really write it out and explain, because I’ve been told sometimes people can’t really understand the jumps I make in my head. So here it is:

Five Facts Most People Don’t Know About Me.

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speed bump, but then again

having no internet at home is a bit uncomfortable, but i think if i had internet at home i wouldn’t really post without thinking, i’d just vomit up emotions. so this is better.

lots of things have happened since i posted, both good and bad.

i just wanted to post here without really saying so much about what happened but just to post as a declaration of existence… kind of.

kind of me just saying, IM HERE! IM STILL HERE! IM STILL WORKING ON IT! and going back to focusing on working on it, rather than just ranting on and focusing on that.

 

moving forward is the key i find.

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